To me, family doesn't necessary have to be bonded by blood. Sure blood ties makes you a family, but that's only by law. There's not emotional bondage guaranteed. 

I am blessed to have a family, a real family. A family whom cares and provides for me not necessary financially but emotionally and physically. As some may know, that in a sense, I've lost my 'family'. But I was blessed, to be surrounded by people who care and still loves me. To have my friends and their families to be there for me too and also to still have my two wonderful guys in life(My brother and my octopus :P We'll just call him that.).

After my family broke off, festive celebrations died down. It bothers me sometime to see how 'dead' things are now at home. What should have been a happy celebration/gathering ends up revolving around arguments and unpleasant atmosphere. I try not to let it get to me too much a laugh it off but once in a while it still gets to me. Seeing how happy and united other people are.. it makes me feel.. a little bit.. envious. Not jealous. But envious. I do appreciate all that I have and what I've been through but deep inside sometime I still wish that I can be as united as them. Laughing away with cousins and friends. I miss that feeling. 

BUT, I am lucky enough. I know this.. I have my 'family' with me now. Though we may not be related by blood but nevertheless they're still my family. The best and as real as one could ever ask for. Thanks to them, I'm still standing at my feet and appreciating everyone and every moment of my life. I was blessed to be able to celebrate all these festive events with them. To be able to go and feel the spirit of it all, I wonder if you knew how much that helped me though and how much I appreciate it all. I feel at home with them. They make me feel safe and happy. Appreciated..

I really just want to thank you all, especially Fish and her family to give me this opportunity to celebrate with you all. To let me be a part of what was supposedly a family event. To always be there for me and provide me with the best help and support that anyone could ever offer. To always be there to help celebrate my birthdays and also Christmas, CNY, Chap Goh Meh etc. Also our o'level results. (Congrats again! HEHE :3)

It's not really the parties and food which makes me happy, but rather the emotions that you've given me. To be able to feel your sincerity towards me. The love and family and everything else that comes with. It slowly helps me heal inside(helps me heal emotionally). Bits by bits, it makes me stronger and happier. 

I really could never thank you all enough for all that you've done. You could have just abandoned me and leave me be or just pretend that you don't know anything but you didn't. You chose to listen and help me along the way. Support me and also encourage me..

Thank you..

Thank you for allowing me to be apart of your family..

Thank you for being my family. 

I love you