I know how it feels to be hated..
I know how it feels to be left out..
I know how it feels like there's no place on earth you could ever belong to..
I know how it feels when 'home' is actually a place where we feel secure but don't..
I know how it feels to cry over little things..
I know how it feels when you thought what meant the world to you betrayed you..
I know how it feels being backstabbed..
I know how it feels when you felt like that very second, there's where your life ends..
I know how it feels to be alone..
I know how it feels when no one in this world wants you..
I know how it feels when every single person seemed to look down on you..
I know how it feels being bullied..
I know how it feels being criticized..
I know how it feels to lose what's precious to you..
I know how it feels when your world came tumbling down..

I know how it feels to cry over something or someone who doesn't even care about you..
I know how it feels to care about what you shouldn't have.. 
I know how it feels to feel..
I know how it feels to regret..

I know how it feels to be lost in the middle of no where..
I know how it feels when nothing seemed to be in place at all.. 

I know how it feels to be invisible 
I know how it feels to trip then tumble down over and over again..
I know how it feels to be catch then fall..


In life..In my own thoughts, I may and would most-likely think greedily that I'm the only one suffering the worse.. no one will ever feel the pains that I feel inside me. No one will ever feel what I feel.
I selfishly think.. ''Why me?''
Little did I know that elsewhere, beside me, in front of me, in every corner.. 
there are peoples that feels what I feel, and that are going through what I've had..
Little did I realized that the person in front of me..
would be going through something worse than I've.

Don't think selfishly.. never think that your alone.
Cause whichever corner you reach,
there's people out there who have felt how you felt.

Your not alone.. Don't let your feeling conquer over you,
don't let your past bring you down..

You are NOT and NEVER will be alone.

Don't compare your life to another persons.. NEVER. Like seriously, don't.
Humans are fragile, we believe what we see and hear 


Anyone, by that, I mean.. ANYONE can fake a smile and nod away
but somehow we wouldn't know surely if their actually tearing up and screaming inside.

Looks are somehow a disguise.. You might see this person all cheerful and happy 24/7,
having a nice beautiful family, a perfect house, everything just seems so perfect,
but that's just you.

You wouldn't know if she's actually miserable in it,
you wouldn't know that she could be screaming on the top of her lungs trying to escape from all these,
you wouldn't know if she actually not happy at all,
you wouldn't know if her family are really just so f- up.

But that's just how it is! But I learned not to simply judge.. Yeah.
Everyone judges.. even you!

At times, what you see could be just a mask of disguise.
Don't compare, cause in the end, actually all going through the same things,
just a different time, different story, different people, and some of the
script and dialog are changed. But in the end.. if you really come to realize closely, carefully,
its actually the same.

Try not to compare and judge.
Cause you don't know the whole story yet,
you might think you do, but you wouldn't know if it's just 'part' of it.

And.. don't feel guilty, yes.. sometime it maybe your fault,
but everything happens for a reason.
Problems are caused by humans ourselves.

And think about it, have you ever thought of what and why someone is trying to hide things from you in life?
Have you ever come to realize that when eg. You have a close friend, and you see her sad, well at first your really happy until you see her sad, eventually you'll be like "What's wrong, is she ok'' etc and get all worried and concern right? Have you ever think that their doing this all for you.

And sometime.. things are really just to complicated to even explain and at times its just we can't find the right words to say it then worry about how we might use the wrong words then it'd turn into a completely different thing. Think about it.......

Yes, but ..whatever. I wish everyone the best of all and goodluck in life.
There's just too much Up(s) and Down(s) in life.

I'm glad I have you guys by my side!! I keep saying this, but I'm sooo.. blessed in life.
I love my friends :') thank you for always being there.
And I'm sorry that I always let you all down over and over again,
you never really did gave up hope on me! Thanks ..
I'm sorry that I made you all disappointed, but
thanks for always being there! x



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