>Back at Home<

I can only see you in my dreams,

feel your touch in my dreams,

see us happily together in my dreams.

I really didn't wanna wake up. Somehow, I wish I would never wake up.

Cause every time I do, I fear reality.

Every morning as I wake up from my mesmerizing dream with Jay,

I come back into reality where I have not choice but to face my nightmares.

After the incidence at Logan's place a few weeks ago, each day just seemed to get worse and worse.

Each breath I took felt like as if I was gonna die any second.

I shrugged as I forced myself to get up from bed and get dress for work.

I've officially quite school after that day, or perhaps I should say I got expelled.

"Like who would wanna be in such hell anyways?" I thought to myself, maybe it was a good thing that I got expelled after all. I really hated Logan and Sharon for that. I cursed a bit at that thought of them both.

I went into the bathroom and got ready. After about 20minutes, I was ready on my feet to get to work.

My dad went missing a few days after what happened at Logan's place,

I reported this to the police station, but they still can't seem to find him,

who knows if they actually closed this case already.

Beside, I don't even know if dad's still alive or not,

like whether what he's doing or so.

I shook my head slightly at the thought of dad.

All I wanna do now is to concentrate on work and maybe,

go back to Themburong by the time I get enough money?

>On My Way to The Bus Stop<

This is just another typical ordinary day for me.

Like my usual routine,

I took my 5minutes walk to the bus station

and drop of somewhere about 3 blocks before my work-place cause that's where the nearest stop is.

As usual, I went to the near by Starbucks coffee shop and bought my Hot Latte

and a batch of cookies and then continue my journey to my work-place which took about roughly 15minutes by walking. As I reached my work-place, I settled down in the dressing room peacefully alone for a few minutes break before I start working. I work in McDonald's where they serve fast-food.

After I finish, I went to get dress and went out to start my shift.

Well, that's basically my daily life routine. And then.. yadi-ya-da-yada.

I continue working until my shift finish and just go home and rest after that.

Pretty boring, but I try to keep myself as busy as ever to get distracted from thinking of all those 'unhappy moments' that I had. Well, sometime if I'm unlucky I'll bump into few of my ex-schoolmates and get teased.

Well, like I said, my daily routine is always the same if you still can't tell by the word 'daily'.

But sometime rare and unexpected happened today. As I walked out the door, I suddenly went over to my mail box to check if I'd have any mail or so, but that's impossible cause like who would have mailed me right?

And I've been checking for days, and one day I finally decided to give up. But who know why I suddenly wanted to go over and check the mail box. I just had this feeling that I have to and part of me wanted to just go straight to the bus stop like right now cause I might be missing the bus for work but I ignored that part and went towards the mail box and opened it. To my surprise, there's a mail sitting there, so I grabbed it with me and ran as fast as I could to the bus stop cause I realized I was late. I cursed on the way while running.

"Gosh! See now I'm late, but like hell what's this letter anyway? Must be some electricity bill or something, but why bother to suddenly put it in the mail box when they always just randomly dump it by the door step? Ugh who cares!" I thought to myself and continue to run faster towards the bus stop.

Luckily I was fast enough to get there in time, the bus almost left without me! I ran up the bus steps as I put some money to the box exhaustively. I settled down in a sit far left behind at the corners. By then I've already totally forgotten about the letter since I was so exhausted.

Like usual, I went into Starbucks and got my latte and cookies and then left for work.

By the time I settled down ready to change for work, suddenly my bag slip and the letter fell out laying dead on the concrete ground. I picked it up and started at it curiously, then scanned it for some reason. The letter was said to be for me, so curiously I tore slightly open the top and took out the piece of paper inside it.

>Letter From Jay<

Gasping in disbelieve I almost felt completely into tears as I read who the letter was from, Jay.

Yes, Jay. I fell onto my knees still staring straight ahead in disbelieve.

He haven't forgot about me in these past few months. I wonder if he's mad at me for what I did to him,

I wonder if he's ok, had he found a girlfriend already? Lot and lots of stuffs were just going around in my mind, my head felt like as if it was spinning. I was confused, somehow happy yet scared.

"Of course I had told Jay my address! How could I ever forget!?" I asked myself, irritated and annoyed that I've forgot such thing.

After a while, my head felt better, I gathered up courage and stood up and sit myself on one of the benches in the changing room. My hands were shaking slightly as I held up the paper to read it, my palms sweaty.

I forced myself to focus on the words that are neatly written on the paper. It was beautiful, Jay's handwriting was just so beautiful and neat. I felt a slight headache.

The paper read:

"Dear Feauna,

How have you been these past few months? I've missed you terrible. I'm still very worried of you.

What happened a few months ago? Tell me, are you bullied in school? How's your dad(Uncle)?

You don't mean what you've said on the phone right? I'm confused, I can't seem to figure out the reasons for your actions and I don't understand what your trying to do or say exactly. Like we promised years ago that I'll study hard and work until I get the money to go to LA and visit you right? Well, I've kept that promises over the years and I've worked hard for it, just to be with you again. I've finally earned enough money to go visit you! I'm very excited yet worried. I'm sorry if its me to have caused such feelings to you, I'm sorry, if its me, please tell me. What have I done wrong? Did I do anything to make you mad? Forgive me if I've ever did, Feauna. Everything that I did was just to see you smile and I thought it was the best for you. All I want is for you to be happy, I'm sorry for my selfish actions. I hope you could forgive me in whatever that I did to make you mad like that. My flight is on the 09/06/09, I'll be reaching LA around 11.15am (LA time). My flight number is UA78-11 I hope to see you there, I've got just so much to tell you!

Tears started to trickle down my cheeks as I finish reading the letter. Jay is coming to LA. Jay is finally coming to LA. And then suddenly, the thought shot up my mind. I felt so alert all of a sudden that I leaped to my feel and almost fell cause of the sudden movement, but managed to balance myself. 11.15am ! 11.15am is all I could think of at that very moment. Jay, will be here at 11.15am! I looked at my watch that I always wore on my write.. "OH SHOOT!" I cursed at myself, ''It's 10.30am already! Even if I take a cab at this time, the traffic will be packed! Will I reach there in time?? It'll take up at least 30minutes!" was practically all I could thought of too.

I didn't care much anymore, all I knew was that I've lots of things that I wanna settle it down with Jay and tell him about, lots and lots of things that I couldn't and didn't say before! All I knew was that I had to get there in time and meet Jay, even if I'm stuck in the middle of the road, I had to run, run as fast as I could to reach to the airport. I ran out of McDonald's in my work uniform and hurried to call a cab, I manage to get one straight away and around 15m away from the airport, there was a huge traffic! I started to panic, but manage to calm myself down a few minutes after. I payed the taxi driver the cab money and just rushed out and started to run like my life depend on this the whole 15meters. It felt as if my leg was going to break but I ignored the cramps and started to splint all the way to the airport.

"..You can do it, Feauna! This is a matter of Life and Death!! Just a few more meters! You can do it Feauna!!'' I shouted to myself. After a while, something caught my attention which slowed my down and lead me to a stop. I just stood there staring at the news going on one of the TV from inside the electronic shop.

Listening to the Reporter as she say

''A plane crash that killed 44 people in North-West California, may have been caused by a power outage on the ground. Local officials say the plane itself may have clipped power lines, triggering a runway blackout. Eight passengers survived the incident and are being treated in hospitals. The aircraft, en-route from Moscow, crash-landed. Flight No. UA78-11"

I thought my heart stop beating the very moment I heard UA78-11.

"Isn't that Jayson's flight!? Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god!!" was all I could think of.

"NO THIS COULDN'T BE HAPPENING!!" I screamed so loud that people walking around the street all turned to me. My head felt really dizzy, I couldn't breath, I couldn't think, and before I knew it, everything around me blacked-out then I fainted and was sent to the hospital.

>In The Hospital< 

I then woke up to a tube connected to my hand dripping down water. I look sheepishly around and realized I was in a hospital. I panicked as the thought of Jay popped up into my mind again. "OH MY GOD!" I yelled inside of me. I was so eager to get out of her and run to the airport, I didn't bother that I was still in the hospital suit, for all I cared was that I had to get out of here! Without further thoughts, I pulled out the thing which was connected to my arm and started to run for the door. Suddenly, I bumped to a........................

Hey, I did slack a few hours or so :S Hehe. I'll be continue this soon, I promise!

And the thing that happened at Logan's place, I'll leave that to your own imagination.

Boy, yeah.. I trust you won't make me disappointed, will ya? ;)

Chao now! x

Take care!