Wow.. I'm the worse kind of bitch of all.
I drag people along the way with me in life into the hell hole that I'm already am.
Haha. Wow.. I really never realized that. Everyone doing everything for me,
and yet.. I just stand there and seem to take things for granted.

My friends who care so much about me did everything they could to support me,
yet I ask for more. Knowing that he/she is busy, yet I'm like a crying baby bitch begging for something.
It must be that I'm threatening them. Am I really that mean? Did I blind them or did I just lost my mind? I think.....................................I think, I am like her after all.

What I've been fearing all these years, ..what I've been working hard to overcome, what everyone had helped me along all the way just so I wouldn't lose myself. One by one.. along the way, more and more of my shattered pieces drops. But their always there picking it back up and putting it back together for me. That's what made me strong all these years. But now.. its like. I can't anymore.

I really feel very cold. Very empty. Just ..so ..soo..sooo empty. Why am I so cruel?
How could I do these to them?
I'm hurting you right? I keep on making the same mistakes over and over again.

They care so much for me..yet why am I like this?

Why am I so useless? Why!? Why do I always have to make people do thing my way and follow what I say? I'm no queen. I have no rights to do that. Their my friend. And yet here I am complaining but doing nothing about it...

I truely am a bitch.



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