You know, something really bothers me.
Yeah, sure it's fine for you, it's fine for him, its fine for almost everyone, but who are you to say and assume that it's fine for me!? Sure everyone's ok with it, but that doesn't mean I'm ok with it!
Don't go rub it on my face and keep going on and on! Its really sucks you know!
Don't joke at it as if it's funny cause it's not! It's not at all.
Do you know how much I'm suffering from that!?
YOU DON'T. YOU C L E A R L Y DON'T!
Please, don't say it like its just something that could be laugh about by then end of the day!
It's really killing me inside! Don't just say it in a tone of oh-its-alright-its-no-big-deal.
IT REALLY HURTS! I really really hate it! I really dislike it!

How long must you force me to keep my head up and fake a smile tell the whole word that I'm fine but actually, I'm not. Not at all! I'm not fine at all! Why is it so hard!? Why can't you just give me some space to breathe in!? ..I really wanna tell someone. I really wanna share it with someone. But I can't! It's so hard.
And I just can't ..you know how suffocating it feels when you wanna cry but all you could do is sob so hard there but hardly any tears comes out!?

I've already had a huge wound inside. It's not even healed yet!
Why do you have to go rub more salts in it!? It hurts! It freaking hurts!!
I'm NOT always who you think I am!



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