Your walking too fast, I could hardly catch up with your pace.
Everything I catch up, I'm scared to step in your shoes or accidentally mingle your perfect line.
Always scared that I'd step into the wrong place and do the wrong thing.

Everything I'm so close, the next second your a mile ahead.
I can never catch up with you.

I'm always busy running and chasing, hardly had anytime to breathe..

Dramas are everywhere, before I could even finish the previous episode, I stumble into another.
I can never catch up with the speed. Its hard. So please, don't push me.
I'm trying my best to cope with one then another.
How do you think I'd manage two?
I'd collapse. I hadn't even accepted the previous episode, and came crashing another.

I'm scared. I walk left and right, I pace back and forth,
I look to my left then right, back then front, ..All I see is emptiness.
In the end I know I'm still by myself.

Thousand of people scream out my name trying to save and help me,
but in the end I still end up trapping and hiding myself in this lil room I created,
too afraid to shout, to ask, to call for help.

I don't know, is it just me or are you the same?
I have a confession to make.

At times I often think to myself,
oh god, couldn't you just end my life now?

I got to bed wishing that I'll not wake up tomorrow,
I held my breath for a long good moment of time seeing if I'd successfully pass out.

But never did it once worked. Not that I'm saying I wanna die now,
but you get it right? When your just so upset and all. Yeah.
But its all good. Thank god I'm still breathing now.

Its hard, really hard for me to set my mind on studies while my heart and brain is set somewhere else now.
There's just so much going on that I don't even know where I am now.
Like I'm lost in a trance or maze, screaming for help, searching for escape.
But every time, its just the same as always. I stumble and fall. Losing my way, forgetting from where I started and where I am now. And then I start searching again from the 'new beginning'.



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