Reality x Fantasy

HmmmMmmMMMmmmMm..

Thursday, 29 December 2011 • 08:06 • 0 comments

*Sigh*

What's wrong with me these days?

I really hate it when you suddenly

like you know`..

the feeling you get when everything and everyone around you gets just so damn irritating and annoying

or you just out of the blues feel upset and depressed for no apparent reason?

Yup.

It's annoying.

I don't even understand why or how that happens!

GHYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

Okay, lets talk about something else now.

SoooOooooOoooO~

The whole painting thing in my room is complete!
Yay.

Honestly, I feel not much different.

I'm so mad and irritated at myself for being so messy!

And as you can see, I also managed to scatter some of my stuffs

all over the 2nd floor living room (like my curtain, guitar, so pictures etc)

and my dad's room (bags, another guitar and a huge cuddly bear)

*headdesk*
What a mess I've made.

But ohh~ It's clean now.

Accept for the fact that my room still isn't any much cleaner than before

-.-'

It's almost new year..

I don't wanna lie, so I'll just come clean.

This year hasn't been as great as hoped

but it's not as bad either.

Things happens,

so I guess this is just how life is right?

All these years growing up I've sinned a lot,

I've wandered into darkness and done bad and mean things,

I've hurt people and betrayed people.

A friend of mine once asked me this

"Aren't you afraid to die?"

Well, dear sir,

I am. Actually, I am afraid

but I know that people die in life

they leave and ..

it's just a life cycle.

I'm afraid cause I know I've sinned.

I don't know if there's even such thing as heaven or hell

but I believe in God.

No matter which religion you come from

I respect you.
I see God and all religion as the same.

It's all about teaching you to not sin right?

It's to let you know that you have someone to rely on

and that you're not alone?

I believe that everyone will pay for their sin when they die.

So I am afraid..

but what can I do?

Ohgeeze. I'm getting out of topic right?
Haha. That whole thing doesn't even relate to new year!

*headdesk*

Anyway, through all the good and bad,

I've made friends.
Good friend.

I've realized how's true and who's not.

Who I could rely on.

At the meanwhile I've also learned a lot of things.

I've gain and made memorable memories.

But I've also lost people whom I've loved dearly.

Things have pretty much changed in life.

Sometime it feel like a blink of an eye.

I still haven't got used to and adapt this new life yet.

So it's really hard on me.

But so far it's ok.

Life is so full of lesson and has it's on way to bull people

*facepalm*

I know I'm not alone so everything is fine :D

WELL~ At least I'm still breathing right,

so its not as bad after all~

Thank goodness and god for blessing me so much!

I didn't do or give it my all in studies this year,

I knew and realized how terrible my marks have gotten,

even teachers agree so.

I'm very mad and disappointed at myself.

But it's my fault, I know.

I should really really stop just 'saying' and

give in my very best.

I thank god and goodness that I've had such wonderful

supporting friends and relatives by my side.

I thank god and the goodness for blessing me with so many things.

I thank them for letting me live and see how beautiful this life and world could be.

Cruel in someways, but life is truly amazing.

And I especially thank them, the God and Goodness

for always supporting me and helping me in life.

I'm not certain if I'm just making things up,

but whenever I'm down,
I have my friends there for me,

I believe that those are the god and goodness's doing.

Whenever I have no one and feel completely hopeless,

I feel a presence with me and

positive words just pops out of my head telling me not to give up.

I believe that the presence that I've felt all these years

are from God and the goodness itself.

I'm not a very all into religious person,

but which ever, I thank and respect every religion and

the god that they believe in.

I'm a very proud Buddhist.

I may not pray accordingly to time constantly,

but I'm always thanking god.

Never have I once forget how great god itself had been to me.

How wonderful that he's always by my side and supporting me.

Helping me through hardship.

It's funny and amazing know that God itself exist in many ways.

I believe for a matter and fact that God works and appear in many ways.

We might not get to actually see him

but I believe with all my heart that he is watching over us all,

over me.

God presents me all the time.

Like my friends,

I believe they are all presents from god.

I love my friends very much.

They are all I've got after my family.

I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them friends.

Oh God, it must have been hard on you huh?
Having to watch over such a trouble-sm brat like me.
HEHE~ Gomen!

But please continue to hold me in your arms and watch over me!

Hopefully, next year will also be a fun and successful year

full of blessings!

^^ I'll do my best!

FIGHTING~

Same goes to all my friends and readers out there!

Thank you for reading and following up all my entries :)

You've probably known me quite well after keeping up with me for about a year now!

;) Well I'm still the same old, ~~rude~~, ~~trouble-maker~~,

~~lazy~~, ~~clumsy~~, happy, typical me~!

Whom is so positive and ~~negative~~ about life!

My mood still changes quickly.

I gotta learn not to do things according to my mood now.

That'd be trouble-sm :(

HAVE A HAPPY HAPPY AND GREAT NEW YEAR AHEAD!

FILLED WITH JOYS AND LAUGHTER!

BLESSINGS AND WARM!

SUCCESS AND TEARS OF JOY!

You've all done so much for me.

I really really feel so lucky and bless

despite all the bad things going on in my life.

I really really feel so grateful and thankful for everything.

Really, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I'll still continue to rely on you all.

I'm sorry for the trouble,

but please do take care of me.

*bows*

I'm sorry I'll make you all stress, worried and mad

or do something reckless

and probably say the wrong thing to upset you all again,

I'm sorry.

I will ..I will try my absolute best not to cause any much trouble.

Please, do correct me if I'm wrong.

P.s Horay for my 200th post!

Wow! I've gone this far.

I think this is my highest record after all!

Yay. Haha~

*happy happy*
Oh and, that is me trying to be so cute
but end up being so-not-cute-at-all
in a santa hat with an asian pose
trying to seduce my readers.
*wink wink* Get me? S e d u c e ;))
wink*
Jk.
But I doubt it'd work.

xoxo, DoReMi

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