Why is it so hard to talk to you? 

It seems so hard for me to make/start a conversation now-a-days. 

I've always been saying the wrong thing, using the wrong words..

making things awkward or too serious. 

If I don't get a reply I would start telling myself a few negative things such as worrying that i'm boring, not good enough, too unimportant, intruding, wasting their time etc. I would also be worrying about what the other person is thinking about me which really concerns me making me feel all tongue-tied. 

Basically I go all paranoid and start panicking :/

Or also saying things that I shouldn't have said and realizing it afterward which is already too late.

Like a saying goes that "You can't change/erase what has already been said and done." 

I keeping telling myself that I should limit myself and try not to be too over. 

I should just keep quite sometime but I just can't!
I'm sorry, I really want to but it's so hard.. 

Really, ..the best thing for me to say is to say nothing at all. 

I.GOTTA.CONTROL.MYSELF.